Learning

The past two years have been a bit trying for me. A lot of changes, mistakes, heart aches, stress etc. But it has also taught me a lot. About others and about myself. It really has been a roller coaster ride which I hope will come to an end soon. But until then I am learning to adapt & adjust.

I am learning to

• Be alone and appreciate that loneliness
• Love myself.  Find the beauty in every inch of me. I am my worst critic and tend to nit pick everything,  from the way I look to the person I am. Need yo love me more
• Take my own advice ( I think we all have this problem)
• Be more of a go getter. I see many of my friends and people I know accomplishing their dreams and I know it's all because they put themselves out there. I need to learn to do this. I think I tend to play it too safe.
• Step outside my comfort zone. My haircut has been a step in that direction.
• Ask for help. Sometimes my pride gets the best of me.
• Be more patient. Becoming a mother has taught me patience but I could do with a lot more.
• Chose my words carefully. I tend to be a bit blunt which not everyone can handle. 
• Pray & meditate more. When i do these they bring me peace but I haven't been doing much of it so I need to get back on track.
• Realise that I am enough. I worry a lot if I am enough for my son n if I will be enough for someone (this is due to past relationships)
• Worry less. I worry about practically everything.
• Accept the things and people that I cannot change. 
• Lower my expectations but not my standards.
• Realise that I am blessed. God has graced me with a mother,  friends, a son and a "brother" that are amazing and at times I forget that. I also have life and am able to take care of things that need to be taken care of.
• To be happy. Not to settle but to learn to be happy, no matter what. There is beauty in everything and I need to learn to see that.