I can no longer

I can no longer act like I am "ok"

I can no longer be your friend

I can no longer hang

I can no longer just have sex with you

Just the thought of you breaks my heart. You make me feel unwanted, unloved,  unworthy and unappreciated.  You say you have so much to say but cannot find it in you to say it, well I have so much to say also but I want to express it. 

You no longer find comfort in my company

You no longer find me as your safe place

You no longer open up to me

You no longer care for the tears I shed

You walk away each and every time a situation arises or ignore the words I express.  I love you from the deepest part of my heart and soul.

But I can no longer do this

I can no longer hold back the tears

I can no longer keep calm.

You say you need to get your shit together and I need to get my heart and head together.  I need to learn to love me without you, cause I have no idea how to do that. I miss who we used to be but I need to stop living in the past. 

We are no longer a unit.

We are no longer meant to be.

I pray for you each day and will always want the best for you.  So I shall say goodbye, and though we are forever a part of each other's life, I am walking away from you & me.

Sincerely, 

Me